PTSD - MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS
Nicole Denner 
About PTSD, a story about an attack I had and what I did to get through the attack - insight
MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS
PTSD/CPTSD - TRAUMA
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Firstly let's know about PTSD:
PTSD - POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER
This is a mental health condition that many may suffer at some point in their lives.
It may happen after a traumatic event that the person has either seen and witnessed or something that has personally happened to them… it is triggered by these events and affects the person severely immediately or even later in life and may be long term; however, there are ways to manage, heal and get through!
Signs and symptoms of PSTD can be absolute fear and panic, severe anxiety with thoughts that will repeat uncontrollably, flashbacks, and nightmares.
It can affect a person's daily life, their functioning, and every sense of their being. It can cause a range of mental health issues and in turn physical health.
But I want you to know.
It's not your fault...
PTSD/CPTSD is NOT YOUR FAULT
You are NOT your Traumas
YOU are a survivor of your Traumas
BUT
It is your responsibility to heal,
YOU are self-sabotaging yourself
I know you've been through a lot...
I understand that you feel overwhelmed by your own thoughts...
STOP
You are destroying yourself by listening to your mind's negative thoughts...
The saying we all know, your mind can be your own worst enemy.
It's all going on in YOUR head.
Your feelings are valid due to the traumas and suffering BUT your thoughts/blame on yourself is NOT valid.
Whatever you may be thinking about yourself and your situation, don't beat yourself up, stop blaming yourself.
Your TRAUMA is NOT your fault
PTSD/CPTSD is NOT your fault
You are NOT to Blame
You may resist from what I'm saying,
But,
Others don't see you from YOUR perspective,
There are SO many people in your life that love and appreciate you.
They DO NOT SEE YOU, in the way that you view yourself.
Your reality of who you are as a being is not what others' reality is.
You are the child of the creator, the universe, and you are NOT your negative thoughts.
Whatever negative things you may be saying to yourself, it is not your fault.
Whatever happened in the past, the trauma and the PTSD/CPTSD you are suffering, I repeat.
IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT - YOU DID NOT CHOOSE THE TRAUMA
Use positive self-talk, because you are wrecking yourself with the negative self-talk.
Would you EVER speak to anyone else the way you are speaking to yourself right now?
Would you speak to an animal or a child the way you are to yourself?
No, you wouldn't.
How would you treat someone you love?
Would you treat others the way you treat yourself?
No, you wouldn't.
I always say, treat yourself the way you would treat your loved ones.
It's true, you must!
People underestimate how IMPORTANT the words we speak to ourselves are...
You need to treat and speak to yourself with LOVE, KINDNESS, and COMPASSION...
What matters now, is not your past BUT what you do NOW and moving FORWARD.
∆ To get better, to BE better!!! ∆
One of my stories of what happened to me and how i managed to get through:
I had a PTSD attack ... Huge anxiety attack combination.
How on earth did I get through!?
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I have dealt with mental illness in my life from a very young age... Circumstances literally from the age of 3 years old affected me in the long run and one day led me to spiral... point is I have suffered from PTSD on another level! Traumas etc. (I only sought help at the age of 16)
All these experiences have made me the person I am today. So now this is also WHY I do what I do, I help others, guide them not only with my actual qualifications but through my OWN EXPERIENCES.
So, I went to a shopping centre, a place I used to go to all the time with someone who I thought would be in my life until my dying day... unfortunately sh*T happened and we parted...
This is going back now months ago... For some reason this time I got triggered... I go there all the time but last week I went, I had an immediate rush of anxiety and all these memories came flooding through! I absolutely crumbled
I felt heart broken
ALL OVER AGAIN.
I felt his energy there this time... It was absolutely awful.
...So, what did I do to actually deal with this?!
1. I left the scene to remove myself from that energy
2. When I got in the car I allowed myself to slowly start releasing my emotions... (Yeah FFS I cried my eyes out for quite some hours this day)
3. Got home and yes, I broke fully... However, I allowed myself to FEEL, RELEASE and then let that sh*T go
4. After this episode - instead of avoiding completely and getting to work, I took the rest of the day off work.
Because I Needed that! I needed to retreat for the rest of the day, I listened to my entire being and that was to simply just sit with it, grieve a bit, cry when I needed to and rested.
5. I did multiple grounding techniques
6. I asked myself a couple things
Are the SAD, NEGATIVE THOUGHTS serving me?
No, so what did I do, I thought about the happy memories and cherished them because if we don't think about the good part of that chapter and only focus on the ending of the chapter then we can tend to spiral and put minds will continue to stay there
Isn't it true that everything happens for a reason?
Yes, the universe always works in mysterious ways, even if it's a really tough situation to go through - everything happens for a reason in life...
Remember that when one door closes another one opens?
Yes, we go through all the chapters and they are there to help us, guide us, teach us.
It only helps us, learn and grow
becoming stronger and wiser in life...
7. I reflected Upon it all...
I had to shift my mindset and I used some of these things to do so.
Look, Beautiful Soul, FEELING EMOTIONS IS NOT FUN!
I HEAR YOU!
However, it's necessary to allow ourselves to feel and not always brush things under the rug.
Because that's what causes problems within your being in the long run.
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I didn't allow myself to grieve this relationship properly...
Only for a little while but last week even though I didn't want to cry, vent, scream I FRIKKEN DID. FOR MYSELF!
I WAS HONOURING MYSELF BY DOING SO!
I DID EXACTLY
WHAT I NEEDED TO DO... For my physical wellbeing, emotional and mental wellbeing.And the next day, I spoke to some loved one's soul fam about it and released a bit more. But all these little things add up... It's helpful.
Doing what YOUR ENTIRE BEING needs is CRUCIAL to keep your mind in check
When you go through an attack, such as trying some grounding techniques, differently even. Do heavy breathwork! Speak positive words to yourself.
Retreat if needs be, take the day, and allow yourself to release and feel.
When you are ready, ask for support, and confide in a trusted person. And receive!
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We are human! LIFE can be tough but it can also be so great remember, you're still here! Still standing! Pushing through!
That Beautiful Soul is a win! Pat yourself on the back and remember that everything happens for a reason.
We live, we learn, we Grow
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Love & Light always,
Nikki xoxo
